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Scarlet O'Dwyer
to Julian
show details 5:45 PM (20 hours ago)
Dear Julian:
Here's a list of what I'm thinking now. These are some things for which I wanted to give thanks. To you. For.
1. Thanks. Thanks for helping me reali3e that I hate this fucking hellhole and need to leave it now.
2. Thanks. Thanks for allowing me to embarrass myself repeatedly, yes, I know it's therapy and I'm supposed to act like a lunatic, but I do, in fact have some dignity, and shame, and throwing myself albeit electronically at an expecting father is not a move in my lifegame strategy.
3. And thanks again, thanks for turning all the decent coffeeshops in this little town into red-tape 3ones. In fact. I think the whole neighborhood is brimming with ha3mat.
4. Thank-you for making sad movies that much sadder, in fact, unwatchable.
5. Thanks for borrowing from my one of my top-5 favorite authors to spike the punch in the face.
6. Thanksmuch for all the jokes and again the recommendations and the hair and all those little things that make me love you even more every day instead of acting like a dull boring tasteless idiot, when, "What would help?" THAT would've helped. Thanks. Your wife and kids and everything. Yes. They help in making me reali3e what an ass I am and that impossible does not come in shades. But it doesn't help make me feel less for you. So yeah. It helps. It'll help me move on. Possibly move period. But it's no less painful.
7. Thanks for letting me spend oh about eight months of my rapidly dimishing youth living in a fantasy and embarrassing myself.
8. Thanks for breaking my fucking heart.
9. Thanks for turning me into a Nabokovian monstrosity.
10. Thanks for completely destroying my faith in humanity.
Ok. Thanks. I hate everything. And want to die. But I don't hate you. No. I love you. And I HATE THAT. And I do think, that you've been just a little irresponsible. Or oblivious. Or something. I'm sure you have been stressed out and wiped out and busy with your work and your kids, and your 3rd term pregnant undoubtedly incredible wife. And you're happy. And you should be. And I'm not being ironic or sarcastic here. (But only here.) But I do. I think you've handled this badly. I'm paraly3ed. And sick.
Thanks
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S
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Scarlet O'Dwyer
to Julian
show details 6:02 PM (19 hours ago)
THE WIND IS SCREAMING AND I WANT TO FUCKING DIE. Thanks.
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Scarlet O'Dwyer
to Julian
show details 6:10 PM (19 hours ago)
Good morning! Said the nightmare. Time to get up now! You're been on some hallucinogenic drugs. We have to inform you. You don't remember. But there was a terrible accident. Yes. They're... gone. Yes. They're gone too. Do you know where you are?
Nightmare?
Yes. Do you know the date and time?
Um... November 12th, 2008..
It's April 29th, 2010.
What?
Do you know who you are, Ma'am?
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No.
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Scarlet O'Dwyer
to Julian
show details 6:17 PM (19 hours ago)
Congratulations on your baby.
I think I'm done. With therapy. Yup.
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Scarlet O'Dwyer
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show details 6:18 PM (19 hours ago)
Aren't you relieved.
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Scarlet O'Dwyer
to Julian
show details 6:30 PM (19 hours ago)
I'm about to take 4 ativan (no thats not a lethal dosage, it'll make me loopy so I'm not fucking threatening you or pulling any borderline shit on you cu3 i'm actually not a Borderline, thanks. though i hope i'm making you feel bad, cu3 you made me feel REAL bad, so why shouldnt i? cu3 its not fault, no, its not, though again, i think you handled it BADLY. but you probably wont feel bad because you know you did everything right and im just being the... whatever.) so I might sleep through tomorrow, unlikely though. if i dont. yeah. i would like to talk to you Julian. please. thanks. maybe i wont tomorrow. obviously. things are never so lasting or definitive in my world as they are in yours. but no. how can i not want to talk to you. of course i want to talk to you. I MISS YOU. I want to look at you. I want to talk to you. I am pathetic and I am disgusted with myself. For being this pathetic. If, rather, when (believe it or not I've been on the other side of this too. Many times. Well I guess it's only fair that I should get it too. Karma's a bitch like that.) someone has been this pathetic over me, still wanted to be around, still wanted to talk, still wasted their time and money and breath on me, knowing I was N.I. Not. Interested. I found that pretty pathetic. Now I don't feel so strongly on the matter. Well I guess theres a life lesson I can thank ya for. THANK-YOU J
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Scarlet O'Dwyer
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show details 6:32 PM (19 hours ago)
FUCKING ANSWER ME PLEASE. NO? CAN'T DO IT OVER E-MAIL? just send me a blank email, or better yet, just send me an invoice. HAHAHAHA. Yeah. Send me that. Thank-You.
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Julian Darcy
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show details 6:52 PM (19 hours ago)
Scarlet,
Can I call you just before 9 tonight?
Julian Darcy, Ph.D.
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Scarlet O'Dwyer
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Please.
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Julian Darcy
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Confirmed.
Julian Darcy, Ph.D.
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