I am so, so, perfectly lonely.
I create all this stuff and want to share it and nobody wants to see it so I pursue these careers about sharing for strangers, because it's the only way I can express myself or connect, and, I am just so utterly alone.
I love my classes and it's a pretty day outside.
I'm really happy with my music and some plans I have.
I'm practically suicidal.
Well. I wrote J the other day, and he didn't write me back, and so then I wrote him to let him know when my insurance (always the good red herring) claims cleared.
And he didn't respond to that either.
And I'm wondering if my e-mails are going straight to the trash.
I know its hard but this in the long run its for the best. Things will get better! What doesn't kill you makes you stronger. (cliche i know but true!)
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awww. I want to see your stuff.
ReplyDeleteYou know, I'm watching Glen Beck (and I never do) and the guy's talking about how when humans want to create something, they have to bond to something. Interesting thought ,like when you want to write, it's because you've bonded to a person or an experience. I'm just thinking on it now.