for all concerned:
officially, have been sweating and in love with and fantasizing and occasionally having odd flirtations with J, for the past... since I stopped "seeing" him as a client, in September.
but really this time.
like. its been laid out and said flat out and he wants nothing to do with me...
i could explain more of how this came about. but i dont want to right now.
and i'll be fine. i think.