Syncing Feeling

Funny, that.

Against all better judgment, and because I have to be at work soon, and S is coming to fix my headlight bulb in like 5 minutes, I was compelled to stop at Julian's. At like ten to 8. I decided I'd take his Eckhart Tolle CD to return it and see what happened. I almost hoped he wouldn't be there because it was such a mess and I'd be potentially blowing off a friend who was coming to FIX MY CAR...

And he wasn't. I got there, and his car wasn't in the lot.

While I was driving I heard my phone go off, e-mail alert. And when I got back in the car to drive home it was a message from Julian. The subject was "received."

I missed him by like 5 minutes.

I was compelled to rush over there when he was writing that e-mail.

It was just a thank you for sending the insurance check, and that he was looking forward to listening to my CD, and an "I hope you are well."

...But I looked in the e-mail headers (cuz I'm a stalker like that) and saw that it was indeed sent from his office IP, and actually in a response to an e-mail I wrote him a while back, that said all this stuff.

Anyway.

I'm not going to respond.

Decisive.

Okay no. Not today. No way. Toward the end of the month. Then it'll be TWO months about since I last saw him. And for these next 2 weeks- no writing, no letters, no contact, no nothing. He wants to be pushed but he needs to know that yeah, I'm not gonna bug him too much, considering the precarious nature of the situation and all, that I can control myself and am not gonna be a yeah, crazy stalker girl, which he kinda loves but, from his perspective, could also be kinda risky. So. No more e-mails. Gotta make him afraid to lose me. And miss me. Gonna drop by on Tuesday the 29th after doing my work at Table Top for a few hours in the morning, in case I run into him.

LET IT BE WRITTEN LET IT BE DONE
WITH GOOD TO ALL AND HARM TO NONE

Okay woot.

AND- I am going to work tonight. Cuz I need money for certain things. Yes.