I LOVE JULIAN DARCY I LOVE JULIAN DARCY I LOVE JULIAN DARCY
It's crazy how in love I am. My heart is in my throat. I don't feel at all how I wanted to, or thought I would, I thought I'd be so cool and dismissive and blase; as soon as I got out of class my heart just started racing and I rushed to his office so I wouldn't be too late... He opened his door... I sat down and I really couldn't look at him... whenever my eyes met his I looked away, I couldn't even really talk after mumbling some things about driving and then my... Ah, I can't write about this, I don't know why, nothing's changed, he didn't say all the things I thought he would, he said some really nice stuff and he didn't really say anything- he didn't really say anything. He made me laugh and I made him laugh and I have this cold and I look like hell... and... I had his glass in my hand when I walked out and had to turn around and knock to give it back.