awwwwwww. Don't kill yourself!I logged on just to tell you I sent you more of my story. I was thinking of you today. Don't be discouraged. There is so much more good to come.
Do not kill yourself! That is the worst thing you could do because either a) you will succeed or b) you will end up in the county mental and and realize you don't belong there but it isn't that easy getting out (trust me I'm speaking from experience here the tale is on my blog).